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February was so stressful I don't even want to look back on it. But first things first, I'm glad I didn't overestimate myself and aim for impossible writing goals. Of course, I want to push myself and write more, but that would be more counterproductive when I couldn't reach the goal and beat myself for it. Secondly, I discovered that I should have planned for emergency days when I couldn't write because of things I couldn't plan for. Lastly, I wrote 9k words this February. It's not much, but it's progress! And before I forget, I hate the government.
I don't know if it's because I was stressing about a lot of other things. Reading became a chore. By the end of the day, when I usually read, I didn't have it in me to pick up the book. Maybe it was also because the last two books I was supposed to read were paperbacks, and all I wanted to do was lie down and I couldn't do that with paperbacks. I really ought to make that post about kindle and e-books.
Still, I managed to finish 5 books. Two of which I already began last year. But still, a good feat for me.
I was saving this book, but I ended up finishing it in one sitting. If you like Korean drama, idol drama, this book is for you. I liked the cutesy part at the beginning and I was teary by the end. It's only $2.99.
This was my cheat book. Lol. I still needed to finish another book, and it was the last day of February. I didn't have it in me to finish the nonfiction I was reading, but I knew I could finish this in a day. Lots of kinky sex but lots of feelings as well. The perfect amount. It's not also a cliffhanger. It's also free on Kindle, so do check it out.
I discovered this story when I was reading for the 3-coins challenge in Radish. I ended up reading until the end. It's light, sweet, steamy, and has a happy ending. I enjoyed it thoroughly. I waited for the chapters to unlock, but it's worth it.
I actually started this book last year. I was already 23% in the audiobook when I had my subscription with Scribd. I couldn't finish it because maybe the audiobook wasn't that good. Anyway, I found that the beginning has lots of info dump. I couldn't tell who's who. But when I read this on kindle, I flew by it. It's a good fantasy with the likeness of Catholic's propaganda back then using religion to conquer lands.
I don't know. I'm actually torn. The e-book's price for the next is almost the same as the paperback, but it's hard to find in my area. I'm considering subscribing to Scribd again, but I think book 3 is only the audiobook version. I like audiobooks too, but I want to make the best of the subscription. Maybe next time when things are less hectic.
That's it! Before I end this post, I want to mention something more personal. The end of February marked the beginning of an end. It signified that it was almost one year. It was like it ended last year but began as well differently. As the month ended, I decided, finally, that I'm worth it. I refuse to be used. I value peace of mind than temporary happiness. I want to be able to sleep properly and be without worry because no matter how I look at it, there are startling irreconcilable differences.
I let it go.
The heaviness of it all still lingered, but it's okay to be sad. It's okay to be sad for now rather than berate myself for not being enough, for tolerating something less. This is better than pretending, avoiding, and drowning it away.
Time marches on. People and feelings move on too.
How about you? How was your February? Read or watched anything good?
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